I'll use this first blog to tell you a little bit about myself. In case you don't already know me :) I was born and raised in Kitchener, ON and I currently reside in Calgary, AB. I have amazing friends and an even more amazing family. Most of them are still in Ontario and I miss them so0o much!!!! But life in Kitchener... well, it was crazy! And that's to say the least. I knew I had to get away, break the mould and find who I was. So I did.. I was given an awesome opportunity to come out here with my Mom and Stepdad (a few years after losing my real dad, we'll touch more on that in blogs to come) and honestly, it was the scariest decision I had ever made. Imagine packing up your whole life and leaving everything and everyone you've ever known... upon my arrival, I was miserable. Me and my stepdad (his name is Jeff, we'll refer to him by that lol) drove here... it took us 3 days, I don't think I stopped crying once :( The hardest part of all was leaving my very best friend in the world, the only girl I've ever fully trusted and connected with more on a sister level than a friend (she's amazing! And I'm sorry that life has caused us to grow apart a little bit but she will forever remain my best friend ever and I will always ALWAYS love her!) and my Nana, my rock! (I owe so much to my nan that it will be absolutely impossible for me to ever repay her. All I can do is promise from here on out to be the best I can be, make her proud and love her with absolutely everything that I am. She is the strongest woman I know and I already know I'll never be half the wife. mom, grandmother, daughter, sister, friend she is.) ...it was definitely quite the change and it took me a few months to adapt. I went back home for a visit after just 2 months and let me tell you, I didn't think I was going to last out here. Home was just... home. You know!? But I was quickly back into my old habits and reminded myself "no matter how much you love the people, you left for a reason. And if they love you, they'll always be there." and so far they have :) I still have all my old friends and even though I don't get to see them on a daily basis... I never forget they are there. I can feel them and we talk as if I never went anywhere. I can honestly say I think me and my boy BFF are even closer than ever! I can hardly go a day without talking to him and the second I do, I'm nothing but smiles! It's nothing like the way it use to be, (sometimes I just want to hug him or hang out and be silly, get our hair did, drank some white russians.. whatevs!) but it means a lot to me how strong we remain from so far away! And my favourite story of all is how close I've grown to an old highschool friend, I can easily call her one of my best friends these days. I DEFINITELY can't go a day without talking to her and it's kind of hilarious how alike we are, we're aaalways on the same page! She makes me laugh, lets me rant, pretty much helps me through everything and most of all... she makes me feel good, she's the person who helps me to see what I'm worth when I think it's nothing! She even builds my confidence in things that I love like photography. She is overall an amazing person. It sucks most of our relationship is via BBM but I know we've grown so close that once I do make it home, it'll feel like we were together the whole time and for that I am grateful :) I hope ALL my friends (sorry if I didn't mention you, I love you just the same) know just how much they mean to me, I think of them every single day ♥ ♥ ♥
But anyways,things started to turn around out here in Calgary, and my mom was able to land me a job with her (still have the job and love it!)... well this is basically where everyyyything changes... I found the love of my life on the other side of the country and I no longer regretted moving here for one second. Our first year together was INSANE!! I can't even put it all into words how much of a rollercoaster ride we had, but we never gave up (even though we almost had a few times, something told us not to) and in October 2009, he asked me to marry him! Our "trip to the alter" was probably even crazier than our first year together. Between his family not being involved, my family being TOO involved, Jeff falling ill, us being stressed whether to do it in Ontario, Alberta, Mexico... etc was a little too much and we called the whooole thing off! It came as a shock to a lot of people, and the truth is.. we were crumbling. It was awful because it wasn't even issues with us, it was issues regarding this darn wedding! Well I went home in August 2010 for a little bit of a break, far too long of a break (it was only 10 days but when you're not use to spending even one night away from someone.. it felt like an eternity!) and it truly brought Zach and I closer than ever. He said to me "enough of the bullshit, I just want you to be my wife." so I came home and we planned the most perfect little backyard wedding in September with no one but us, our photographer, witness and a commissioner. It really is as simple as that... it was perfect, it was us!! We ordered chinese and went home to spend an amazing night together ♥ I know this is just the beginning of our life together and I am so excited for more to come... I recently tweeted (ps. follow me! LOL.. @sammijoxo) "he is the only person in this world who can make me laugh when I'm absolutely broken." and it's true... he's my soul mate. When I feel like giving up on life, he's there to pick me back up. He didn't have a glamorous childhood either and I think that's why it's so easy for us to relate. We are definitely wise beyond our years, that's what happens when you have to grow up far too soon. We both learned in the end, all you can ever rely on is yourself. (And finally, now each other ♥)
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